|Girl in the shadows, waiting...|
Huh, what a weekend..
First of all my mother called me and told me that she is going to be hospitalized this upcoming week. She has been sick for a pretty long time now. Her stomach is so big tht you would almost think she is pregnant.
And when she told me, my Heart began galloping, and later I cried, I just couldn't hold it in. Because alcoholics usually drink themselves to death. Shit.
Then.. He, kissed another girl.
It wasn't "his fault" but he did say that he kissed back, and then afterwards got upset about it and turned his back to her.
And this girl, I actually know her, kinda..
But you just don't kiss somebody else when they already have a girlfriend, you just... DON'T!
So my trust to him is now poor. Or, not that poor, but not "great" anymore.
And I thought I was the one to fuck Things up like I use to do.
Whatever mistakes your dear ones do, forgive. If you love them, you forgive.
It would be such a shame to stay in the past because of a stupid mistake that can't be taken back, though it can hurt you, deeply.. No one told that it was easy, but I didn't want to let go of such a Little, stupid thing.. Ofc, if it happens some more times, God, then I wouldn't know what to do.
But one good thing has happened this weekend. Fie and I were celebrating Fies 18th birthday with her mothers Family. I had a great time and I hope that Fie also had. The best moment was, when we were sitting in the couch, just talking about everything and nothing, and the guests sat in the dining room and talked and laughed. It felt like a nice and warm athmosphere just in that moment.
Oh, and I got to know, that my Little baby born now is in a "long distance relationship!" Long distance, you don't say....xD
Well, Peace out, whoever reads.